All You Are

A member in an online community I’m involved with recently had his girlfriend “stolen” by an online buddy of his, the girl and his old friend web-cam chat and also plan to meet up in real-life sometime soon.

It’s moments like these that make me really frustraighted.

Was the girl so unhappy with her relationship? was this online friend such a bastard?

I don’t know who to blame.

I’m not currently involved in any relationship, locally anyways, and as sad as that is. I’m kind of glad, some of the girls nowadays are into really weird things and dress so gaudy.

A man’s worth seems measured in money and trendy styles nowadays than it is in anything else. Can’t girls realize that the drop-out, emo, poser kid isn’t going to benefit them down the line as much as that geeky, reserved guy?

And why has “who lost their virginity first?” become such a contest among our youth today? That kind of thing should be saved until marriage and have a special meaning behind it, but our trashy society nowadays seems to say otherwise.

Though I’m also saddened at times, I really believe that somewhere out there is my one and only, someone just for me, I’d rather not be married to someone that I don’t believe to be my soul mate and think that I ought to just live my life single.

But it’s really depressing, so depressing I’d like to just die sometimes, but I’m a coward and could never commit suicide.

I use hanging out with my friends and spending money as a ways to temporarily forget the sad state of life I’m in most of the time, but when it all comes down to it, I wish things weren’t this way.

“One beautiful April morning, on a narrow side street, I walked past the 100% perfect girl.

To tell you the truth, she’s not that good looking.

But still, from fifty yards away:

She’s the 100% perfect girl for me.”

“The moment I see her, there’s a rumbling in my chest,

and my mouth is as dry as a desert.”

“Maybe you have your own particular favorite type of girl.

Say one with slim ankles, or big eyes, or graceful fingers,

or you’re drawn for no good reason to girls who take their time with every meal.”

“But no one can insist that his 100% perfect girl corresponds to some preconceived type.”